going out

i am done going out
occasionally ill have to satisfy the wishes of a friend or colleague, but only because their joy brings me joy - but in all honesty, there is little good, truth that can come from it. I don't need to be sedated like everyone else, and I don't see the point in the dance that's involved behind it being late, having drinks, etc - other than for mating, in which case it does not say much about the level of consciousness of either individual at the moment it occurs. Moreover, its considerably time consuming.

there is a certain peace that comes with the morning - maybe its that everyone is groggy, and unwilling to open to the day, so my being awake and aware makes me feel monkish. A wise mentor told me that the hours that you sleep before midnight are the ones that we truly need.there is something to say about how the cosmos and light affect the soul, but the only way to do it is to try it. One day at a time, after all - we cannot expect to be perfect throughout its entirety, and unfortunately many of the things we do are bound by what others are doing. The question is, how much is enough - and why can't i change them?

my decision might make me seem outcast but who cares. i think it will make me more social actually :)
to a new beginning, a new path, and enlightenment
cheers